(continues from Part 3)
How was I before the enlightenment? The truth is, during my undergraduate (1995 - 1999) I was never a good student, I do not mean intellectually but culturally. Learning was boring, that's it, period! I went to the lectures half-hearted and I did not even have pens and books. I have tried to own some but they just disappeared. But lucky enough for me, there would always be friends especially female friends who were willing to lend me a pen during the classes and some also 'sedekah' me with pieces of A4 papers only for me to fold them at the end of class, put it in my back pockets and finally lost it. One of my female friend even went to the extend kept a pen especially for me. She said "Airil, ini pen kau tapi aku jaga, lepas habis pulang balik kat aku". Don't get us wrong, there was no romanticism whatsoever because I wasn't that attractive you know . One time, I spent almost RM 20 during lunch hour, bought a girlish pencil case, filled it with expensive pens, mechanical pencils, lead, eraser etc, went to the next class at 2pm then unconsciously left the pencil case, came back at 6.30pm to look for it at no avail. Dzul once told me that he recently met our female friend who's now teaching at Politeknik Ungku Omar asking about what happened to the dude who never had a pen (of course she was referring to me). The irony is, until this day, I still do not have a pen.
Up to the sixth semester, not even once I got 3 pointer in any subjects. My CGPA was about 2.7. I hate the most were those related to managements and anythings that required reading. Looking back, I must admit that partly it was my fault but another half was the system. I was never given the reasons. 'Why' was not the ground for arguments. I was 'told' but never reasoned. When it came to equations, in fact there were no equations in a stricter sense, but formulae, I was 'told' how to use them. There were no maths and physics, no wonder I was bored.
But how with all the 'hatred', you might ask, I ended up doing my Master? This somehow got to do with a very beautiful lady named Halinawati Hirol.
To be continued...........